wow. i haven't come here in a really long time. once again, a lot has changed in my life. i've switched jobs - kind of. i'm now doing healthcare banking at goldman (still in SF) instead of technology at DB. it was definitely difficult making the transition just because i liked the people i worked with so much. the funny part is that i've spent more time with them hanging out in the past week than I probably would have if i was still an analyst there. before i started at gs, i took some time off and visited my family and friends in china. spent a few days in shanghai and had lunch with quite possibly my favoritest english person in the world sami. visited gsb (aka chris) in beijing and dinglay. overall, a great vacation. spent 5 hours at a spa in shanghai. climbed a remote part of the great wall of china with gsb.

for the past few months i guess i've been grappling with what the hell i actually want to do with the rest of my life career wise. what do i want to accomplish in this lifetime? what is going to make me happy? if you have a chance, check out steve jobs commencement speech at stanford this year. i wish i hauled my ass to campus to listen to that and say goodbye to ads and lau. anyway, his take away message (like many wise/foolish people before him) is to do what you love. that's a great message if you know what you love. i love dogs and horses and photography, frisbee, baking pies and shopping - i don't think any of those things are quite prone to sustaining my lifestyle. i've been thinking about going back to school when this analyst business is all said and done...maybe spending some time in a tibet...inner china. i realized i haven't had any down time in my life. i've never been lost. i've never not had a next step. i think it's important to have that time in your life to reflect, because before you know it, good years of your life will have passed by.

god. so much in my life has changed since my last entry. for starters, i'm no longer going to hong kong. i'm still doing ibanking, but with the technology group in san francisco (still deutsche bank.) it's going relatively well. i actually like the people i work with, so i enjoy working and learning. it's a bit intense of course, but i suppose i wouldn't have it any other way. why am i not going to hong kong? i was extended (backhandedly albeit) an offer to stay. i have a bunch of logical reasons as to why staying is a good idea, but mainly because i like the group, the environment, and i'm happy here now. the guy i referred to back a couple of entries at the end of the school year...we're (amazingly and bizarrely) seeing each other. i can't say he didn't have anything to do with the decision, but he wasn't the main reason. i would have made the same choice with or without him as a factor (if inquiring minds would like to know...) i'm living on mission street right below market in a building with a kick ass pool, gym and roof top. if you're in the city, come visit or call. just because i'm an analyst and i have no control over my free time, it doesn't mean i don't cut off for coffee or dinner or an afternoon swim when i can. it's insane. i haven't had time to miss college. it's been bam bam bam since graduation. not much time to reflect...i'm really good about email (since i have to check it all the time at work and i'll be having a blackberry.) but email me and i'd definitely love to catch up, etc.